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hmm.. met pei qing to chill out at starbucks pw! (:

reminiscing the past we had during secondary school days. yes, though weve gone our sepearted ways today, but i guess ive learnt many things during the days back.

life is just so complexed at times. at any one time, you tot that yes, this will be my friend, and yes i can trust him/her, but oblivious to how much damage that one can do to you, how much can he/she mane an impact in your life.

though, it may all be memories, but somehow, it still lingers and seriosuly haunts me at times,the happy yet scary moments i had.

headed for Joo seng leh, but closed, just our luck! went down to geylang for supper! guess what we had.. hmmm..........

oh oh oh!!! n the best part is, ive been driving for the past 1 yr 1 month plus!! n today, which is the 12th of sept, i was issued my 1st summon ticket at geylang! come to tink of it ah, we left the eatery at 1 leh, den the stupid person was there to issue the ticket at like 1245 la.

lalalala...

branding

our

supper!

my 1st summon ticket!

TO yun, dawn n qing.





sleeping my sorrows and agonies away. Im just too tired to think of the future, what will happen next, and what life will become.

Ever since dawn has left, life has became so meaningless, but thank God that He sent yun n qing into my life once again, to be there for me, to listen to my problems and to guide me like how dawn did, im grateful to u all girls, and i reali do, without you girls, i cant even imagine what my life will be at this moment.



dawnny: thanks for the countless memories that you've given me. The guidance and the advices that are always there, most importantly, the assurance that u've assured me in life.
and besides you, im not sure who else can i trust.



qing: we were close friends in the past, yes somehow we lost connection the last few years, but im glad that we are back together as one. happy to know that we are together again!! (:

yun: girl, thanks for being there for me all the while, sometimes i reali do understand how u're feeling inside, it reali hurts me too.. but i noe theres nth i can do to get u out frm the dark side of life. but girl, if u reallly feel that u wana reamin in this situation, i hope that u'll preotect yrself. dun be too silly k ? at times, ya , i we need to give in, but not everytime you must be giving in.
k?

and if not i reali hope that somehow u'll come to yr senses that life is actually greater den what u are having now.
someone, somethere can provide u with what you and and need. stop tormenting yrself already k ?








yanting.



life is just so unpredictable, so many cons that is lurking around. ive lost trust and faith to the human population already, i no longer dare to entrust myself to the world, oblivious to what will happen next.

im not sure whether its my problem or what?! but just when i tot i could trust a person, the other person told me, that he has motive for knowing abt me. the world is just so scary and im really sick of living in the world where sins are manipulating each day.

im runnning out of breath, energy and strength.

past days:

monday night.

cousin touched down in sing, met for dinner, den left to Jacelyn's place at 11 plus to pass her, baby wesly's pressent. hes turning 1 month old this 23rd.

it was really very so dam weird to see her aft like 5 yrs aft she left cchb, saw her that night, i cant belive my eyes, she was no longer the jacelyn i knew like when we were young. so motherly now.. haha! (:

tuesday .

aft sch went home, slpt till 4plus, qing msg me ask me whether wana go far east, so i met her like 7, had dinner, went to do a little shopping! (:

wednesday. today (:

went to sch as per normal.

ok la, not so normal for today, dat ah gong, sat beside me, n i guess he stepped into the wrong class leh, he came in n started drawing my book .he tot he's in art class leh!! but seriously la, the lesson was pretty boring la.. caught someone slping too. =p

yeah!! mayb going out to meet cousin n nicholas that group. but kinda like anti leh ..
hope the night will be a good wan la.

ha! this is interesting!!
its created by dawnny!


this is about yanting.
http://toonlet.com/archive?m=s&a=1&i=16571

shi peng's.
http://toonlet.com/archive?m=s&a=1

the complains she has! haha..
http://toonlet.com/archive?m=s&a=1&i=16567

i just realised that, love cannot be compared in anyway.
i have got 3 good girlfriends whom i love.
dawn, qing n yun.
Each of them, they are attached to their boys,
but all 3 experience totally different love and care.
yes, everyone agrees that we cant compare this to that,
but! sometimes, life is just so unfair.
someone who deserves better, just dun receive the blessing!
she who is totally devoted to her boy,
receives nth but hurts and still hurts!
its totally ridiculous to have such a nice person and taking at the end taking in shit from him?
hmm .. i really do feel the agonizes that is going thru in her.
it hurts, real pain.

girl, pls be strong and learn to protect and defend yourself alright? i know s'pore has strong total defence force la, but stil learn hot to defend when your "enemy" attacks you k?

to dawn! (:

i miss you more then ever,

the laughter, the joys that we had.

im counting down, till the day u get yr ass back!

cos i so need you to be in my life once again! (:

ok .. im not gonna wait for qing to send her all her photos! haha..

wait for her to send, den i'll upload la!

did cam whoring in the public!! =p
anywae, seriosuly i had fun.
real fun. met up with my girls again! woots! its just so nice having gfs!!


had sushi aft sch with yun, shopped around aimlessly!! guess wat, i went back to Gucci, and no one recognised me la.. i stood infront of joyce, n she was like "ya? wat-you-want look".. ha.. but eventually they all did recognised this tooty yanting! (:



im going back on dec to work at Gucci!!

oh ya, met qing abt 5 plus!!


n thanks girls for accompaning me to stay over for the lion dance competition.
cos' promised kenny, that i'll make my wae there to support him, which i did! (:
congrats to nan xian lion dance troupe.

spot the diff.

sony's supporter.

coffee bean. (:

the crowd.

the sister.

of this little boy.

they stole our view!

kenny's troupe!

guess wat she's doing?

like.. duh!!!

sry, pei qing! but im real tempted to. =x

random thought...

suddenly i realised that life is just not going according to the way i've anticipated.
at times, i reali wonder where do i inherit my genes from, or is it just in me, that ive cultivated over the years?
all my gfs are attached, n yes they are in a stable r/s, except for me.
i noe i can just get into a r/s easily, but how long will it last?
never long.
today i know that, its my character, my attitude, that freak people out,
that i distance myself frm others,
how i close up my circle of friends,
and to live in this pigeon hole of mine.

yes, i may have changed, both for the better and worse.
but, it all depends on how ppl treat me.
i mean, its very perplexed, i myself got no idea what im yearning for.
ive been given a chance to cherish,
to repent,
to forgive,
but each time, i took things for granted.
ppl whom treat me well, i took them for granted,
ppl who ignored me, i jolly well ignored them too!
its just me.
i cant be controlled by anyone,
or perhaps being ordered around,
i live in the life that i feel comfortable with.

im not sure how long can i pull thru this emotions for mine.
yes, i maybe defiant, rebellious, at time retaliate,
but aftermath, i feel the pain in me,
and it will be too late to rewind the hands of clock.
but i know what im doing! (: