its been a long time since ive updated my blog le leh? when was the last time? haha.. no idea too!
anywae, its been reali tiring to work n study at the same time, (which im practicing at this very moment). life never gets fair in this society..

in school, im lagging behind, but catching up soon, and work, im so near and yet so far away from my target which is like less den 30 k to 200 k la..
anyway, the main thing is that, frm 27th to the 29th, taka is having this 10% promo thingy la, so, the store was dam freaking crowded, it was reali a hassle and its reali suffocating to be working in there.

customers complain that Gucci is providing bad customer service, but have they ever though of y r u giving them such lousy attitude?
at time, we're forced to do so, cos dey themselves pisses us off. At such peak period, they can come to u and ask nonsense, its reali frustrating.

ahhh..

never mind about this stuffs. Today's saturday again, but i wun get to see my dawnie! perhaps, tuesday? hehe.. shes having stomach flu, n im joining missy tan in maranatha! (=
which also means that, high chances of getting bump into JUDY! dat horrible person. =x

getting dressed and everything, today got ahmad volunteered to pick me up frm my place to church, den frm church to work. waaa... so nice meh ?
haha..

anyway, im reali thankful to him la.. (=
thanks Rudy.

gotta go, hoping to meet army they all ltr aft work for movie!! (=

c ya guys.
loves.

haha!! well.. im feeling pretty fine aft reading jireh's blog! reali had a bad day plus mood swings here n dere...read he's blog n u'll noe y it made me smiled! (=

was talking to him online last night, till like abt 1? when he's suppose to b in bed at 1o, plus he was suppose to have his paper today, and at last he forgot one of the formula and dat q carries 30marks. =p

guess, dis guy here reali touched me deep inside, was pretty taken aback dat he actaully noe me well, compared to all my ex la.. or even friends. (excluding dawnny n aunty).. he reali noes me well, though we're not dat close la.. very very touched.

he should have at least taken better pose right.

p.s: thanks jireh for cheering me up last night!

Longing to fall into the arms of someone,
whom i know that will always be there.
A pair of arms to embrace me tight,
a heart to love me wholeheartedly,
a pair of eyes to watch over me,
ears to listen to my problems.
Most of all, wanting to wake up each day,
knowing that YOU are the 1st person my eyes see.

I want You to be there to assure me,
that everything's gonna be alright,
when i cry,
just like the other time, you wiped away my tears,
embraced me in your arms and assured me that everything will be fine,
though i know it wasn't true.

I should have realised that i was the luckiest girl in the world
to be loved by you, instead i took yr prescense for granted.
Tonight, im sobbing while reminiscing the past we had.
I know its too late to say anything,
but, stil im apologising for not cherishing you and the past.

somethings just wouldn't go according to what you had planned.
guess what! God had planned out everything accroding to his ways.
y? SOMEONE out there saw SOME things that wasn't meant for him,
however, he dint happened to read someother stuffs dat was meant for him.
y? the reason is because, the other bloggie which is http://mindsamazed.blogspot.com happened to be suspeneded, and now finally, its regained. see the miracle that god has planned?

happy b'dae weili..

today's the 24th! n guess what? its weili's b'dae today..text him last night bout like 1145? more or less la, greeted him advanced b'dae, n surprsingly i was the 1st to wish him. (= haha.. i wana be the 1st to wish him happy b'dae in the following years.

wat touches me most was wat he said over the msg which i well forgotten long ago already.. he reminded me that no matter what happenes im always a part of his heart. (= but whatever it is, kinda reali hope that he'll find himself a good good gf that will cherish his love!! (=

happy b'dae to my weili.. =D

im tired.
im drained.
im reali perplexed.
life is just so disheartening.
the more i try, the greater the disappointment gets.
world is just so unfair, others may get another chance,
despite their character, attitutde or even their arrogant looks,
but its me, that will never get another chance.

IM FARKING GONNA WASH MY HANDS OFF ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT HAS GOTTA DO WITH MY GROUP ASSIGNMENT ALREADY!
EVERYBODY IS JUST LIKE... I REALI GOT NTH TO SAY! GOOD AT ENGLISH, DON'T WANA HELP OUT, LOUSY IN ENGLISH JUST WANA BE STURBBORN AND SO IT ACCORDINGLY TO HIS WAY! THE EXAMS ARE JUST ON THURS AND IM FARKING EDITING THE ENGLISH HERE LIKE SOME PRIMARY SCHOOL TEACHERS! IM NOT GONNA EDIT LE LA, REALI CANT GIVE A FARKING DAM.

JUST GONNA HAND UP A PRIMARY SCH KID ASSIGNMENT. IM CANT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE !!!

today's sabbath!! (= another day to worship my beloved God. its oso the same as seeing the ppl i miss! like dawnny?

haha.. but on the other hand, seeing ppl whom i'll try to avoid in church la.. detes HIM alot nowadays..

the sermon was dam good today la, but half wae thru it, i fell asleep! =x

sleep until shuang dao.. cos i noe dat no matter how tired i m ive always got a shoulder for my to lean!! thanx dawwny!! anywae, ya, she came back frm m'sia le! guess wat she got for me? though its simple la, but i seriously appreciate it alot, cos dat shows hoe much she cares for me! =x thick skin!

alright.. lets start with last night's event!! =D finally, im able to recharge my batt for 2 days by not attending school n work. its a break dat i reali needed. (not reali 2daes of sch, but 1dae of sch nia)..

anywae, met colleagues for supper at nydc to so called celebrate charine's b'dae la, so picked willis up frm his place! walau! his place is ulu dao... i took 20mins to reach his place though it should b onli like 10mins la! nvm..

reached town like 945? more or less la.. walk around till like 1015! drop by starbucks, willis got me my frappacino iced moca blended! waaa... 1st time sia. haha.. so dam touched, just because i picked him frm his place. nice deal hor?

haha..

live is reali getting out of hand.
seriously, i wonder is it the stress dat im facing nowadays turns me off easily or wat is it!!

gosh, swings are happening so very often, but i cant seem to express them all out. its like the feelings are being kept inside me, till im running out of breath... wats going on la!!
dam farked up sia..

facing ppl who are brainless or their brains are kept inside their ass for the sake of keeping??
dey got like the whole day to shop!! n hello, taka is open frm 10 to 930!! y must ppl come n buy thing, browse things and give all sorts of excuse when its time for closing!! dumb la.. dey dun need to go back, we need right! customers are not always right and 1st, esp for those who tot, taka is thier father's wan la!

fark!! nth to describe them but dumb...

that heart of mine u're talking to,
is made up of batteries.
every once in awhile, u need to charge in order for it to work well.

it seems like, im running out of batt,
n it seems to be failing anytime if im putting in more den i should.
when the power is completely used up,
it will stop transmiting signals to my life,
which also means,
im broken apart.


don't treat me like a fool,
toying my feelings as and when u like.
u have no right to,
cos im in control of all.

another tiring day!!

hai .. to me, it seems like sales period is over le la.. no business means no incentives. hehe..

well, at least managed to take dis weekend off, to study for the upcoming paper!! grr....

ya!! i'm eagerly waiting to collect my Ralph polo tees asap, gonna submit my order to zai tml and wait my orders to arrive asap!!

n im oso waiting for joyce, charine, barry n chen to get our birkentstock sandals la! im intending to get this pair!

simple and nice.

yawns!!! 1st things first.. i reali, truly appreciate the ppl around me, esp those who are and were with me thru, the darkest hour of my life.. thanks alot! i guess thats wat are friends are for la.. unlike, some, verbally saying dat "u're my friend", but the actual fact is, that 1 person never saw u as his/her friend.

watever....

pretty happy today, coincidentally bump into my bestie shi yun duting lunch when i drop by centrpoint to grab smth.
was coming down the escalator, den happen to saw her on the phone, so went over.. hehe, well, she knocked off le, nowhere to go, jiu pei me back to my workplace lo.. gosh, found out dat its been a long time since we last caught up for a nice chat.

managed, to grab like half an hour talk.

Girl, stay strong alright, i'll be dere for u thru it all, im just a phone call awy frm u or even just even 5mins walk awy frm u. anything, pls look for me ok.. i seriously understand how it feeels. i went thru it more den once in a reali stuck up or rather screwed up r/s, which i've yet to noe why, at that point of time i seriously treasured it alot la.. mayb im screwed too!!

haha...

loggin off le..
work, and sch as usaul la.
nights peeps.

finally!!! its been like so long since ive come into contact with the world! life used to be soooo meaningless, now life is so stressful, seriously i duno how long more i can hang thru it.. everydae, gotta face ppl with i duno where dey got their attitude from, and its like argghhh! no comment to the max la..

arrogant ppl, ignorant, impatience and watso more?? ppl who cant get their time well?

dam.. wonder where all these ppl come from. or is it just thier character that creates them?

haha...

lets just move away from these disheartening stuffs la!!

finally, i manage to bring my perfume out frm my work place le, yay!! got my DKNY red apple at onli 15 and my Tommy girl- 10 at onli $10! (=

and now i got my both green and red apple! =D

a person whom i respected and love the most,
turned out to be an incorrigible beast.
time will heal, but the scars remains,
some memories are kept,
but some are deleted for the better.

don't call me a friend, when u've never treated me like one.
don't say u love me, when u've never.
watever it is, its all bygones.
ive learnt and saw the true colours of the beast.
ive realised dat all these while, im keeping a beast,
longing to return to the arms of beast.
glad that the nightmare is over, and dawn breaks.
everything will be alright for now on.
nothing of you, will be kept.
but the last word "stay away from a beast like me",
will be kept dearly.
cos i will.

no regrets, no remorse.
im glad that i have finally said what i wanted to say.
though, loving u is something inevitable,
but u no longer exists in my dictionary.
not even the past.

seriously, i reali dun understand why some girls must make a fool of themselves infront of like so many ppl. she gives ppl an impression dat she's desperate for some guys la, but in fact, she's already to some dumbass who allow her to be out drinking with like more den 10 guys?

like wtf??

pls get the point dat im not getting jealous here, its just dat i cant stand the way she act infront of those guys! like a total whore can! she ask ppl out, n yet she's complaining dat she had made a fool out of herself. ass!

its gonna be another day

another has just passed like this. time flies. well, took off on the 1st day of work.=p but i tink its worth taking dis off. im reali tired and drained out la, finally aft so long i can have duno how many hours of sleep!! *stretches out* 2mlo onwards, im officially losing my freedom to the society already..!!!


sian.. but i guess it will b alright after 2 whole months...

finally, ah how is back frm thai! which also mean im getting my shirt. hurray!! will b meeting him some of this night to collect it frm him!

MILLION AND ONE THANKS, AH HOW! =D

woke up late for service today.. but not so much on service la, supposed to have left my place at around 930 for bedok mrt to do my sup card from my dad, skully 930 den wake up la.. received 4 missed call frm my lil dawnny n 3 msges. i guess she must b calling n cursing at the same time for not picking up the call la.. hehe..

anywae, ive received my supp card le! its citibank platinum (= though stil prefer UOB de but nvm..

ya.. so today is my "lover's" b'dae n my mei's b'dae, so went to get his cake at taka den gave him at gucci. well, he said he loves it cos its frm me! *smiles* Den aft dat met my family for dinner at thai village, kallang leisure park..!! (=

gotta tuck in earli, 2mlo gonna start work le.. hopefully everything will go just fine la.. (=

wishing both my lover n sis a wonderful b'dae. (=

there she goes.. (=

the happy family. -yanting n yanyi.

p.s. Dominic said im a girl! n he belives im a real girl. haha.. 1st guy to say that.