The Best Mum in The World! =D

If there’s ONE thing that i will be proud of, it will be my mummy.

The one and only person, that i’m truly love looking forward to, each morning when i return home from work.

 

a wonderful day! (:

dated:19.08.2009’

if ever, you’re feeling down, please look for dawn! i’m very sure that she’ll be there to make you laugh like how she made my evening wonderful! we had sushi dinner at Hougang Plaza and apparently, she ordered like 3 bowls of half udon which seriously made the server went huh… maybe she copied my idea lah! 3 plates of salmon sashimi.

ahhh.. anyway, she told me a joke. i’m not prepared for the joke initially, and by the end of the joke i was laughing till tears was building up in my eyes la. That’s why, i said, whenever u’re feeling down, please look for dawn! she’s the best pill to treat depression.

 

after which we went to, and was supposedly heading to the inter, but caught this little shop at the basement, and we went in! these pens just caught the eyes of dawn, and she decided to buy them for her students, which includes me! (:

thanks baby dawnny! (:

dawn’s mimic.

and i finally found a reason for living! (:

 

things that i’m planning and hoping! (:

1) hopefully, the interview for Qatar Air will go smoothly!

2) i wana try getting my Nikon D90 either before BKK trip, or for my birthday present or x’mas present!

3) still planning hard for dawn’s birthday gift! she’s turning 18 already!!!!

4) learning how to be a good and understanding gf for the future bf!!! =D

5) i want go fly kite!!!!

what am i suppose to do?

currently, stuck in very shitty situation. i’m lost. What am I suppose to choose from? God? Or Job?

i don’t want to neglect God, especially on Saturdays, i wana go to church on Saturday to worship like what all the other church members are doing. i want to sit in the sanctuary right from the beginning till the very last bit of the worship and not having to worry about work later, or even to rush home to sleep, thanks for the nightshift that i have.

But, on the other hand, i want to get hold of a job in a 5-star airlines as a air-stewardess, which Qatar Airways is recruiting people right at the moment! Min requirements? i’ve met all. including high school education, height and etc… but what about God? What about his fourth commandment, keeping the Sabbath holy? 

How? I know i am not suppose to be attracted to “nice” things on earth and suppose to concentrate on what is Heavenly, however, this is the only life i have. once and for all. Never anymore will i have this chance again..

advice please?

the most memorable day.

10.08.2009

 

 

  

recent mood: bad.

i’ve not been myself recently. i guess everyone around me realised the fact, that i’m behaving oddly. i’m really sick of life at times. it feels like, everything has been altered whenever I've planned my way out, and because i don’t have any back up plans to fall back, my entire world seems to be screwed up by me. i’ve tried to smile all my sorrows away, but each time i smile, the “tears-level” in me just increases. what am i suppose to do?  i’ve tried all ways! i swear. i allowed time to take over me, i heed advices from whoever i feel comfortable telling about my problems to. but i just cant seem to get the answers answered!! i really need a breakkk.. a break from everything and everyone!!!'

i need to go to the beach and sit there till sunsets, listen to the sound of the waves and let the wind take all my thoughts away! i feel that i will just break down anytime, and i don’t want this this to happen, its just so difficult to pick all the pieces up and put them into 1 again! i want to be all alone. just myself and i’ll feel contented! let me be alright?

help!! nobody understands what i am going now!

 

recently, so many unhappy things has taken place.

 

i received an sms from someone whom i really admired a lot. To me, she’s the most perfect i’ve ever met. She’s totally flawless! i tot she had an amazing relationship with her bf which i guess they have been dating for the past 3 years or so, but it all ended just 3 months back, and she’s trying to move on. i believe this is quite a big blow to her. sighs. what exactly happened, i didn’t wana ask, cos a break-up is the best depression medication you can ever find on earth, i guess?

anyway, conclusion is that i feel life is just so vulnerable. anything can just happen to us, anytime, anywhere, anyhow. we’re nobody to control our own fate and destiny on this earth. cos we are just like tourist visiting planet earth, and at anytime we’ll have to leave this place, and return to where we come from.

 

yanting is retreating to somewhere that she’ll feel comfortable!

today is a special day.

dated: 10.08.2009