so now i know how it all works within a family, hur?
guess, its just my luck of the day that i’m in a down foul luck, that everything that was suppose to be right, turned out otherwise.
i seem to be blinded by the problem that is bothering me in this life of mine? am i total failure or is it that i just don’t know the appetites of the people i should “feed”, thus getting myself in a lose-lose situation and that seems like, i’m always in the losing side of the game.
i know myself well,
i don’t go round curry flavoring others and hoping for a advantages or benefits in return.
i help as much as i want to, and not i need too!
but it seems like, my kindness are always taken granted of, and that applies to even the intimate people around me!
favoritism? jealousy? and what else can i add on to the list?
my cousin once made a statement, and i dint understand till, only recently.
i finally understood how she felt, being at the losing point, there’s no one that she can to, but to swallow whatever that is brewing up in her, alone.The anger, sadness, jealousy, and most of all, the agony that one can understand the sufferings. best part? there’s no one to turn to for solution! not even the closest person that she can confide to.
and all that applies to my current situation, at this very moment. the person, whom i can confide in, isn't in any sight. leaving out the others.
thanks for all these farking shit, that i gotta put up with in this rotten life!! im more then grateful to carry on this life and take in more rotten shit!