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the music played thru the speakers reminded me of the past

we used to had, when everything had just begun.

i’m not sure, if its a chance for me to reminisce the past? or it simply just make me want to tune to other station?

cos i realised that despite how much effort I've put in, it will just be in vain eventually.

At times, we tend to do “stupid” stuffs.

Stuffs that we “thought” it might be able to please the other party,

to make him/her smile,

to let him/her feel loved,

or even to make yourself visible in front of him/her.

But, many a times, we forgot that what we might have “thought” of,

might not have even bypassed his/her mind.

And at the end of the day?

You will feel like a clown in the circus, entertaining the audience, making them laugh till their tummies hurt,

and behind all those thick make up is all the sweat and hardwork that you’ve invested in the performance.

After the show, all they give you is that round of applause,

thinking that its your job

and you have got to do it well.

or they might even have watched it  a million and one time

and they expect you to be there every time when they are there to watch the performance?

you might feel contented,

you might feel like.. yes! literally a clown,

to both you and the audience.

Or maybe i should just make myself scarce,

and then, perhaps the audience might just miss me? hahaha

 

 

 

 

i’m still waiting for what i’ve asked for,

obviously it will no longer be a part of my prayer every night.

i want to witness, what will it be like without the help of God,

and i would like to see what will the actions be like.

But, bare this in mind,

i’m running low on my patience!!