life is changing for a better,
much much better life.
no longer sad, instead looking forward to each day.
as each day of the week i noe im meeting my friends.
and as far as i noe, i reali miss them alot.

however, at the tot of 20th aug,
my heart sinks.
its the day when dawn is leaving.
for now, im trying to accept the harsh reality that she's LEAVING me.
9months without my soul partner!
how m i gonna survive?!!!
but i noe, she's returning on DEC for me! =x
(trying to be thick skinned here la!)
haha!
she's reali a wonderful partner lo!
p.s. dawnny, when will our camping be ?? =x

anyway,
im meeting shi yun on thurs!
guess where will we b going?
snow city?!!! haha..yeah..
cant imagine 2 20 yr old girls are out at snow city?

haha.. fun! (:
and then,
im going to the zoo, with that ass,
cos he wans me to go with him.
not like the zoo is fun la,
but i also wana go la.. haha!

looking forward to a dae where i can go ikea? duno for what la! but i stil wana go! (=

updated photos! (=

i guess, it was a sunday, when i met him! (=
went for blading at ecp! i saw him(weili) again!
its been a long time since i last saw him,
bout a yr plus or so?
haha.. guess he was pretty taken aback when he saw me n bing yuan
that aftnn.
anywae, yup, my whole sunday was with that ass. (bing yuan) la,
real whole sunday.
but well, he made my sunday a nice wan.
tiring but a happy sunday! (=

villa marina's pool view.

bing yuan's car car.

guess, recently God has sent ppl down to me to cheer me up la, and to so call pull me out frm the dark. Thanks to everyone out there.

im proud to finally say that im happy! (:

maybe it for tonight? or for the rest of my life? haha.. anywae, i reali had an enjoyable evening with dawn, she reali made my evening!



but i also gotta thank bing yuan for informing me that this eveing was the preview, so can catch the fireworks display! (:

although, fireworks display are almost the same every year la, but this was a speacial want, cos its just me and dawn. everything just went on smoothly for the evening, though morning was a bad wan la.. haha!

aft the fireworks dsiplay, we had our dinner at marina sqaure foodcourt.

and this is the worse dinner, ive ever had in my whole entire life can, the ban mian there reali tasted like, eh.... expired de?? hehe...

guess wat!! we had mac's ice cream lo.. eee.. cos dawn paid for it. hahaha..



but stil, im just happy! dat's the onli word i can describe my mood. this is the yanting ive been searching for! not the weak and helpless yanting, ya ?



anyway, plans for tmr.

might be skip tanning for tmr la.. c how lo.. hmm.. lunching with family tmr, then meeting bing yuan for blading at ecp! its been a long long time since ive bladed at ecp.

hopefully tmr the wheather is a nice wan la!! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZrpGaKrTZw

sorry ah.. its reali bad, cos u gotta c who is handling the cam. =p

today's a real special day for me and my family i guess! cos its been a year plus, dat im at home today (which is a sat)! and plus im jobless, i dun have to go back to gucci, and i cant do much on sabbath, plus im single, no bf's place to go.. dawn is in the library, meeting her boy ltr, den i can onli come home and hibernate! (:
hehe...
anywae, im meeting dawn ltr for fireworks display, thanks to bing yuan huh, told me today is the ndp preview and they will be having the fireworks display at 8pm!
aft all, dawn need to go bugis to get her pressie for her daddy, which is mr chee, cos it's his b'day tmr.

(:
at least im getting better aft today's service, God is reali something. He made a way for me when there seems to be noway. He made me realised that He's there for me and this offer stands till the end of my life! (:
dat's ans to why i can onli trust God, and God alone.
Thank God, yanting is getting better!

im turning in already, gotta get up soon! (:
loves.

well, this post goes out to those people i've hurt and hurting currently.

im oblivious to how much pain i can bring to anyone of you, esp. yong, and et.
this is yanting, i dun reali put up with whatever you show me, be it your temper,
attitude or character. it wun make any difference to me.

perhaps, its over the years that ive cultivated towards guys ba, i learnt that sometimes u just gotta be strong internally, emotional and psychologically.
and after years of having this mentality, i become very rebellious and probably defiant, sometimes bitchy!

but im reali sorry and i'll TRY my best to mend this shitty character of mine.
however, i stil wana thank those who was there for me, taking in all the shit that i gave, and he reali deserves to be credited.. haha! cos i guess he's the onli wan, who managed to put up with it for the past 10months and is stil, though he need not to.
Thanks ET.


to yong,

thanks for all the moral support for the past 8 yrs. but i guess, for the last 2 yrs, it was a pretty difficult wan for ya, many setbacks and depressions that i had given you, and stil you never gave up till today.
i got no idea wats holding u back frm giving up, but, i wan u to rmb that, you, army, kun and liang will always be my BFF! (:

theres many more out there, but i guess i wun have the energy to type it all out!
but thanks to everyone out there.

this is yanting! (=

haha.. yanting is officially jobless today! sobs..!! i cant divert my sadness to other things le la!
walau... anywae, time reali flies la.. today is already the 1st!
an older chapter of my life has just ended, and a new is beginning!

guess, its time for me to b strong and let the past die behind and start anew! (=

well, i sometimes reali dun understand, its either ppl out there trying to act blur or trying to shove their responsibilty so they wun feel guilty? anywae, i reali duno also la huh..

last 3 nights was pretty depressing wan, i guess, its over someone again la, sometimes, emotional stress is pretty difficult to control and understand. but somehow this smart ass of me, dis something dat night, and miraculousy and it made me "stronger" ... i guess he's totally oblivious to the hurts that i had during that week, but himself. gees!





p.s. pics have been removed to avoid questionings.


put it this way la, its not "stronger" la, somehow it made me realised that it was all God's will. Ive been holding back my feelings for so long, not wanting to admit dat ive fallen for him, and just when the day i decided to admit and accept the fact dat ive fallen for him, God carried out his plan, and that made me realise that im just " too good" for him. I guess, its because im sturborn and wun accept things dat i dun like la.. ya.. and that's how it ended up like that.


yanting will be fine! (=