21.10.2009
exactly 14days, since we met.
i feel so much better after talking to dawn, about everything and anything that made my life felt as though i’m stuck in a pile of shit lah! Its over, i’m gonna learn how to take things lightly and learn what dawn has taught me.
i had a nice time. Weeeheeee
its another day.
slept less then 3 hours today,
gonna catch some sleep already,
work starts at 7 as per usual, mentor will be taking leave to settle some family affairs.
nights everybody. (:
Mental Blockage.
my blog will be pretty dead for a while.
writer’s block, perhaps?
but one thing for sure, i’m still trapped in a depression state. trust me.
PMS has been with me lately.
Work sucks. wanting a transfer out of my current branch to another. i got a freaking CB manager who really CMI (cannot make it). He doesn’t have any potential to be one.
a senior who thinks he’s super great. but for sure, he sucks.
have not been talking to my dad for about a week or 2. no subject to talk about. or should i say, there’s nothing to talk much about.
me:
once i’ve seen the ugly side of you, even for a moment, i cannot pretend that i’ve never seen it anywhere before. the fact can’t be denied. i can’t forget it, neither can i let it go, if you treat me the ugly way this time, and good the other time, i won’t buy your story. sorry. i can’t look into your eye and pretend that nothing has ever happened.
that’s me.take it or leave.i’ve learnt to treat people the way they treat me. i think this is fair, if you want the respect, earn it, its the same way, if you want others to spare a thought for you, like wise spare a thought for others too. Its a two-way thing, give and take. Isn’t that simple?
good night world! (:
at least i started my 1st night at work well,
found my aim to work hard and get transferred to kovan.
its gonna be so much better then where i am now.
its a lousy place.
15/10/2009.
The day when the girls meet! (:
did a lot of catching up. Lots, and when i say lots, i really do mean lots. topics covered, family future planning, work, relationship, bad-mouthing about whoever we can think of, and also getting prepared for the future possibilities that might happen to us by our in-laws. So, yun make sure you make the right choice of location, and don’t sleep too much le.. haha! (:
i got my chanel necklace! (: a gift for myself.
there’s only a reason to why i’ve decided to put this song on my playlist once again:
mainly is because, this song reminds me a lot of the past i had before or rather right before dawn left for the states to further her studies. This song had brought me so close to God, the one and only time that i felt so close to God and i surrendered everything to Him willingly, attended church on every Sabbath and feeling even closer to Him then ever.
It taught me also to be independent.Not to rely on anybody but Him alone.
also, this song reminded me the good time i had with pei qing, when her bf left for Thailand for training, the closer times we had, until her bf came back, and things became different.
The times i had with both yun and qing, it was really awesome, ok lah, maybe not that awesome as i thought la, but at least, it was memorable. trust me. (:
This song also reminded me, the beginning of us. (mingus and me)
How did it all begun.
Till today.
it has been a year and the days will continue.
thank God for sending dawn into my life.
Life= spiritually, emotionally, physically and of course mentally.
she taught me to be the best of myself.
she went thru hardships,
happy times,
and of course,
she witness my baptism!! (:
the pastor who baptised me! =D
