went ikea after dinner bout 8 plus 9, with my 2 meis, and goose. Hmm, was really trying to sort out my mind, trying to push everything back to the back of my brains. I just cant make it. I’m really at a confuse state. Sometimes people just don’t understand me. All i needed was peace and maybe some advice, some listening ear, a shoulder to lean on and someone to understand what state i’m going thru. Its not easy to go thru all these, alone. And not someone who rant at you, thinking she’s right and i’m wrong. i needed someone to talk me out and not farking shout and start yelling! yes, i may be wrong by not going to work and stuff. But does ANYONE understand how unhappy i am at work?! i may put on a mask as though i’m freaking happy at work, actually i am not. not even little. i am sure even Mingus doesn’t know this. i’m just putting a mask to show them i’m doing fine at work, simply is because i do not want my parents to feel uneasy and worried. All i wanted to do, was lessen their financial burden, and help them to take the load. But i guess it was just my partial thinking after all.

 

now, after all the damage has done, what else can i do???

   

 

 

p.s: pictures taken with my 2 mp cam. my phone is spoilt.

its all over.

had the experience of queuing in that stupid line for more 5 hours, returning home for 2 hours and back for the interview. managed to make it thru the 1st and 2nd round, it was really pretty disappointing that i dint not make it to the 3rd round. It feels real sucky to feel so disappointed and everyone around me is having fun, i just cant seem to blend in for that day. all i needed was encouragement, but there wasn’t any. sighs.

Anyhow, i managed to earn the experience of going thru this few stages. It was pretty worthwhile, to sacrifice a day of sleep and exchange for this experience. I’m no longer going back to the previous company, I've given up everything over there, and all i want to do is to start all over again, to get out of my comfort zone and take a rest before getting hooked up with a new job.

Yun, thanks for covering up the whole thing. Its pretty difficult, but since its revealed, then let it be ba.

i’m really grateful that you’ve taken the trouble to get up early in the morning, did the wonderful make up for me, for a moment the 16 year old girl looked 21! impressed. and of course, not forgetting the hours that you’ve accompanied us thru the stupid interview.

thanks my love.

damn damn damn!!!

i’m awake at this hour, when i’m suppose to be asleep lah! am i being too nervous or what? is there anything for me to take, in order to calm my nervous system a not? haha!

i woke up super early like 2 plus? and i started printing the paper for tomorrow morning, got my outfit prepared and the all the necessary preparation for tomorrow morning la! I’m not being over KIA SU, its just that i’m going over to the chamber right after my shift ends tonight.

super shiong lah!

anyways, i’m trying to be myself. haha.. like taking anti-stabilizers to stabilize my brains?! DAMN, i got butterflies in my stomach! this will be the 1st social activity i’m attending, its gonna be thousands of people, and i really can’t find the confidence in myself, which i usually have. sighs.

But, no matter what the results will be, i really have to thank a lot of people who is and will support me thru the whole thing. I will bring the very best out of myself, and will not let you guys down! (:

especially

-yun,

-mingus and family

-my family,

-dawn,

-Et,

-How

 

and many more lah!! haha.. i’ll try catching a nap now! (:

 

await for the good news! (:

Loves.

Its all About the 2 blacks rings around the eye.

its another long night, met Christine after work for shopping. Wanted to get a shirt for this 12th, but ended up window shopping and she got her dark circles that covers her eye. haha! its weird, but its cute though. Anyway, i’ve decided to let it be. I’m not going to be concerned so much about this 12th, God will have its way, and i’m facing the greatest crisis of my life. Its gonna be a life time decision. To remain or move on. Either one.

Anyways, started from Bugis and ended up at Clarke Quay to meet Mingus the bro for supper after his events at Zirca. Seh, today is all about eating. Had Long John’s just before we went over to CQ, in less then an hour, we went Coffee Club for 2nd round. Hai, don’t know how much weight i’ve put on recently.

 

  

once goods are broken, it will be considered sold.

handle with care.

was going thru my mail box in the other account, and happened to saw this particular 1 from Jasper, i found it really really meaningful and some of them i feel that its as though its trying to tell her that everything is gonna be fine, its not going to be the end of the world, moving on is difficult, but life is about moving on each day.

cherish each day like there’s no tomorrow. (:

 

 

 

 

think about it again.

Random Things about my life! (:

met dawnny for Ban Mian this afternoon at city plaza, after which got yoghurt at Tamp 1!

 

got this shirt for Goose!

hahaha.. since he got promoted today, this is his little gift from me.

Identify the character on the shirt!

my new pillow from my mum. its handmade wan leh! (: